Boom boom Pow

Even if you’re on the right track, you’ll get run over if you just sit there.

—Will Rogers

I must admit, I think I have a severe case of the Winter Blues.

It has been almost a week since I have updated. Time sure does fly when you're busy. In the past week I have worked out most of the days, cleaned some, and tried to stabalize myself.

This weeks lesson for me was about emotional health. I plan to quit smoking, as it is an unhealthy crutch. The medicine I plan to be on to help me with this is also an antidepressant.

Mum and I are going to be going to the community center here, for healthy activities like Tai Chi, Yoga, and walking groups... But it is also greatly for our own social benifit, as we could both use friends in the area. Kaity and I might also start doing ZUMBA, though I am not quite sure how to feel about this... I feel silly.

My weight has been stable, I am not gaining or losing anything, and I think most of this is attributed to my eating habits. Mum and I are going to start weigh ins on Mondays of each week. She is going to order more salad like things, which I think is brilliant.

-- A.E.

I know, I know I know... I'm still your love.

"I know what it is to live alone inside your head, while never giving a clue as to your real feelings"

-Albert, The Young Victoria [2009]

I find the very idea of writing letters to be quite a romantic notion. In these fast paced times I find that our society has evolved to lean towards the instantanous gratification, not cherishing those many things that take time. I would like to return to writing letters out to those I hold dear, though I imagine it's not very practical... it is a novelty. Expendable.

Today has been a bit anticlimactic. I woke up past noon, again, which is unshocking as I didn't get to sleep until seven. When I woke up I ate appropriate amounts, and ran on the treadmill, and honestly I began to feel like I was starting on the path to make a dent of an improvement in my life.

Fast forward a few hours, and you have me thinking almost to the point of brooding. I have come to realize that in order to become a better, healthier person I need to cut the bad out of my life, or at least reduce it. Sadly, I also realize that there are people and factors that I really can't change, and friends that I don't want to get rid of. The stress and upset, and overall bad energy around me will probably not be the most positive thing for my venture, but we all have to learn to take the good with the bad.... Here's hoping I get it.

Todays acomplishments: Treadmill walking, portion control, knitting half a hat.
Up tomorrow: First Weigh in and Measurements

Goals: Reduce time talking about negative things, disconnect when attempts are not helping.

-A.E.