Boom boom Pow

Even if you’re on the right track, you’ll get run over if you just sit there.

—Will Rogers

I must admit, I think I have a severe case of the Winter Blues.

It has been almost a week since I have updated. Time sure does fly when you're busy. In the past week I have worked out most of the days, cleaned some, and tried to stabalize myself.

This weeks lesson for me was about emotional health. I plan to quit smoking, as it is an unhealthy crutch. The medicine I plan to be on to help me with this is also an antidepressant.

Mum and I are going to be going to the community center here, for healthy activities like Tai Chi, Yoga, and walking groups... But it is also greatly for our own social benifit, as we could both use friends in the area. Kaity and I might also start doing ZUMBA, though I am not quite sure how to feel about this... I feel silly.

My weight has been stable, I am not gaining or losing anything, and I think most of this is attributed to my eating habits. Mum and I are going to start weigh ins on Mondays of each week. She is going to order more salad like things, which I think is brilliant.

-- A.E.

I like it in the city when two worlds collide.

Time you enjoy wasting, was not wasted.

– John Lennon

I woke up late, by four hours, and while I could whinge about the wasted time I think it was much needed for my still recuperating body. I have stopped coughing almost all together, which is a good sign, and I think within the next few days I will have completely recovered from my chest issues.

Though I woke up late overall I have to say today was fairly productive. I have cleaned much of the upstairs of the house, jogged and did calisthenics, put groceries away, got the clothes out... While it wasn't as active as I planned physically there was something about it that was soothing. I enjoy feeling productive, and in the past few months I feel like I have generally been unable to obtain that feeling... With a lack of a job or schooling while waiting for our residency to go through on average there aren't many things most would call productive.

Mum, Aaron and I talked about a way to earn some extra cash since I enjoy to have money sitting in my wallet. I think this will be good for me, as it will keep me busy and give me a way to save for a rainy day.

Kaity, Keely, and myself spent a decent amount of time doing art at the same time in the same room. It was nice to be in a room with other artistic minds, especially my sisters... I am so blessed to have been raised in an environment that encourages and provokes my artistic sensibilities, as well as my intellectual acuity. I am blessed to have lived in a home that encouraged me to have my own opinion, as well as to help develop my own individuality.

To my parents, thank you.

--A.E.

New Beginnings Start Every Day.

Supposing you have tried and failed again and again. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down.

~Mary Pickford

In the past few weeks I have completely neglected updating this blog. We are coming up on a month of not updating tomorrow and honestly I can say I have no excuse as to why.

I have either neglected to work out as much, or completely neglected working out on the whole. To top the matter off for the past week I have been sick and unable to leave my room let alone work out... I fear that part of that is me not wanting to. I often wonder if I am self sabotaging myself in almost every aspect of my life.

I know that when I wake up early and do things I feel better... Not only do I feel healthier but I feel better about myself. I need to stop making excuses and start making the time to improve myself as I have previously said I would.

Going to the doctor I found out I lost over 9cm (around 4inches)from my waist since I last saw him. My starting weight was 135 kg (297 lbs), and I am now down to 123 kg (270.6 lbs). That is a total loss of 12 kg (26 lbs). I plan to stick to my plans and scheduals for the next few months, with Saturday and Sundays as my designated 'rest' days. It should be easier considering I have mapped out my day with ideas of what I should be doing with over 8 hours of 'free time' and 9 hours of sleep planned.

Now that I no longer have a URI I feel even more like I need to do these things. I can conquer anything I put my mind to. I am simply happy I didn't go backwards in my progress, despite my falling behind.

--A.E.