Blip

Ambition is not what a man would do, but what a man does, for ambition without action is fantasy.
-Bryant H. McGill

Well, I haven't trained with Kaitlin since Tuesday, but I kept to what she told me to do. I ran, did abs things, walked, stretched, felt like I was going to die... And tried to remember to breathe while jogging. I know in time all of this will grow easier, but right now it is hard. I remind myself it's just temporary pain.

I still don't understand why I have to THINK about breathing to remember to do it, it should be automatic.

I don't really have much to report, this is partially because I am completely knackered.

--A.E.

"If you don't start running by the count of three I will not be training you tomorrow!"

Success is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of enthusiasm.
-Winston Churchill

Kaity Training Me Day Two:

Honestly I don't think I could properly do this without Kaitlin. Sure, I can write out the schedule's, and I have, but I can't give myself the motivation she gives me. She yells at me to do it, so I do. When it hurts and I want to simply walk the rest of the way home she makes me jog more.. Sadly while I am doing better at it I am not doing as well as I would like to be... And probably a lot less than my sister would like me to be doing.

Honestly the hardest part to motivate myself with is the running, so I am so grateful to have Kaity to train me. Today when we were running up the hill (and it hurt trust me) I couldn't keep going... So she would yell at me to continue.. And I would and then I would go a bit and stop and walk and go a bit.. It is really hard to keep my body going with that.. Honest to god my body hates me.

At the time Kaity said, "If you don't start running by the count of three, today will be the last day I train you!" I felt as if something was weighing me down. It was a chore to breathe, to move my legs and arms and to try to catch up to her and my younger sister Saskia.

My legs are sore now. Doing our stretches and mild ab work out a bit later seems so much easier... it's weird.

Today makes 13 days smoke free.

--A.E.

It made me raise my game, And I'm still rising, I'm still rising

Joy is what happens when we allow ourselves to recognize how good things really are.

– Marianne Williamson

Today mum, myself, and my sister Kaitlin went out to the mall to get some things... We were able to get yoga mats which is lovely. We got six, in total I think, since four of us are going to be consistently going to Yoga starting Thursday, and since we may or may not have friends/family who go with us.

When we got home I felt a bit nauseous, so I went to my room for a lie down. I think the Zyban is the cause of it, at least I hope it is I would hate to be coming down with something. I have to say I have been feeling much better these past few days.

I walked my mile, but didn't push it further than that since I knew I would be going to my Tai Chi class a bit later. It was very relaxing, I enjoyed it greatly. My only problem was that at the end of the hour (I hadn't even realized the time had past!) my legs were so shaky from holding my weight, moving my weight, etc. in a bent position, slowly changing directions. My thighs are sore, which I expected after I had been in there for a little while, and my abs are a bit sore from it, which I didn't expect at all.

I think what I enjoyed about it most was the way I cleared my mind and thought. I thought a lot about the book I have just finished, (Excuse me, your life is waiting, by Lynn Grabhorn), and I have to say that while some of it just seems like horsewash the fundamentals of it are something I have always believed in. Like attracts like. I think reading it has reaffirmed some of my positive thinking, or at least some of my attempts at positive feeling, and perhaps has even given me a small amount of spiritual enlightenment.

Thursday I will be going to an art class in the morning, I spoke with the woman who holds them on the phone about it, and though I don't really need a class to teach me to paint I do very much want to be around artistically inclined minds. She told me that there are people there with various levels of skill in her classes, and that for those more skilled in their craft it is for criticism. I am very excited for this class, I think it will be amazing to be around others in such a setting again, I miss it. Mum, my sisters, and I will be attending Yoga as well that evening... and maybe Zumba, depending. I am mildly wary of the Zumba, not because it's dancing... I am sure it will me amazing though.

I hope everyone in the USA has a lovely 4th of July, to all my friends and family there: I miss you dearly.

--A.E