Breathing is good. Please do more of that.

You have brains in your head and feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You’re on your own and you know what you know. And you are the one who’ll decide where to go.

– Dr. Seuss

Today was day 1 of my training with Kaity. We were supposed to do five UpHills, we got through just over one and a half... Apparently while doing any physical activity that is more intense than a mild jog I forget to breathe. I wish I would have just pushed past it, looking back even twenty minutes later makes me realize how whiny and very defeatist I was. I felt annoyed with myself, disappointed in myself. I know that they say it's actually your mind putting the limits on your body... that your body is capable of so much more... but it doesn't feel that way when you're running up and down a hill and your lips are turning blue.

I still have ab things to do today, my 1:1's (one minute running, one minute walking), and Tai Chi. Kaity and I will probably go running by the water tonight when less people are out and about.

I have an awesome trainer who pushes me, and I am glad for it... Though I know today isn't done, I know tomorrow I will do better.

--A.E

I like it in the city when two worlds collide.

Time you enjoy wasting, was not wasted.

– John Lennon

I woke up late, by four hours, and while I could whinge about the wasted time I think it was much needed for my still recuperating body. I have stopped coughing almost all together, which is a good sign, and I think within the next few days I will have completely recovered from my chest issues.

Though I woke up late overall I have to say today was fairly productive. I have cleaned much of the upstairs of the house, jogged and did calisthenics, put groceries away, got the clothes out... While it wasn't as active as I planned physically there was something about it that was soothing. I enjoy feeling productive, and in the past few months I feel like I have generally been unable to obtain that feeling... With a lack of a job or schooling while waiting for our residency to go through on average there aren't many things most would call productive.

Mum, Aaron and I talked about a way to earn some extra cash since I enjoy to have money sitting in my wallet. I think this will be good for me, as it will keep me busy and give me a way to save for a rainy day.

Kaity, Keely, and myself spent a decent amount of time doing art at the same time in the same room. It was nice to be in a room with other artistic minds, especially my sisters... I am so blessed to have been raised in an environment that encourages and provokes my artistic sensibilities, as well as my intellectual acuity. I am blessed to have lived in a home that encouraged me to have my own opinion, as well as to help develop my own individuality.

To my parents, thank you.

--A.E.